Returning to life after chemo
I still have good and bad days. After all, my body is still fully recovering from the harsh treatment of my medical endeavours. I routinely see my integrated medicine doctor, continually take my vitamins and follow a diet of fresh and healthy foods. Supplying my body with the appropriate fuel is critical if I want to feel well. At times my knees will ache, and I will be exhausted from life in general, yet I have learned from my experience last year how to endure. I have discovered the perseverance and willpower within me and the importance of pushing on when times get rough. Knowing that I must not fall into the sedentary state I was chained to last year, I shall continue to push until my health troubles are behind me.
Perhaps the most important lesson I realized was the concept of fighting for what you want in life. I pretty much had every ounce of happiness stripped from my life, and I was living in the most basic state of survival. After a couple months of living this way, I realized that nothing will ever get better if I just wait around for it. There was a song that I listened to frequently during those months by the band called the Villagers. The song was called, “Nothing Arrived,” and one line constantly echoed within the inner workings of my mind. The line was,
“I waited for something, and something died
So I waited for nothing, and nothing arrived.”
Those 15 words rang true to my current life, and the notion that the world would magically whisk all the hardships of my life away. Instead, continuous days of nothing would in fact arrive, and this is a hard lesson to learn. You are the only person that can get the spark of life back, and when you find an inkling of a passion you must pursue it with every ounce of urgency you can muster. When I realized this fact, I started to get better. After a couple months of treatment and perseverance of my own willpower, the old Kristin was back.
So, here are my parting words. I hope you learned that no matter the struggles that life may throw at you, you must always persevere. Yes, that may be the most incredibly difficult task in the entire world, but life is full of countless beautiful things that are easily passed by without this perseverance. So go, find what you love dearly and never let go, for it shall bring a life of love, beauty and happiness. Trust me, it works.